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Life with a boy and his Hypoplastic Left heart Syndrome, now Heart transplant and partial Liver from Aspergillius. Also, a girl and her Tethered Spinal Cord Syndrome, Neuro Endocrine Cell Hypoplasia, Lumbar Hemangioma, asymmetrical gluteal cleft, Pectus Carinatum and two Super Sisters and one yummy baby brother.

Monday, April 12, 2010

With it comes....

I am so excited for this new arrival... In the back of my brain I feel a whole lotta guilt... I feel like jumping up and down that we get this amazing blessing, so here is the draw back... I feel pretty crumby, I shouldn't complain because some women would kill to throw up and feel like they had the flu for six weeks now. Do you know how hard we tried in the past and this just came? I feel like I should have had to work for it somehow. Does that mean it is going to have health problems? I also worry about all those who are trying so hard and it isn't working for them... Nothing I can do will make it work for them...BOOO... I think I will feel better after Wed. It is just the pre-Dr. appointment jitters right?

5 comments:

Kaidence's Mommy said...

I just posted on Emily's. I am with ya. This last pregnancy has been rough to say the least and completely different from the others. I would just lay on the couch all day and let everything just fall apart. I literally couldnt get up. HOWEVER, This last week something in me has clicked. Like that song on Disney's Beauty and the Beast "To Be Human Again". That has been my theme song. I finally started feeling much better and can keep food down. Hope your day to feel human again is right around the corner. Good Luck at your appointment. We are so excited for our new little one and feel so blessed, we too hate ever complaining. But when you are sick for whatever reason, you are sick. Kaidence cannot wait for her baby to come. She is so fun too watch. Good Luck!!!!

Emily@Little Forever Family said...

I am feeling the same way. In fact, I was giggling because our posts kind of are singing the same song!!! You have every right to feel like crud and say it how it is. When it is so much how your life is, you can not help it. I have been nervous to call my sister (who cannot have children) and complain. But yesterday, I called her to let her know that puking nachos just wasn't fun. She just laughed, and said she could imagine that would be pretty unpleasant. I too am grateful to be pregnant, and am just hoping that this little one can be healthy!!! Good luck at your appointment! Let us know how it is going!

Jenn said...

You are so kind to think of everyone else!! You are rightfully blessed in this way! Others will be blessed in ways, too. You are an amazing gal, with an amazing heart, and a desire to reach out. Go Brynn! I hope you get all the magical moments that you deserve through this pregnancy and after.

Lance and Raegan said...

Brynnie, you are so amazing to think of others when, if it were me, i would be completely self-centered and consumed with all my emotions: physical and mental. Something I learned not long ago is that just because you share something that you are experiencing (good or bad) it does not take away or change or belittle what someone else is going through. It is just different. So please share and don't feel guilty. I love you and am so glad you got a "FREEBIE" as you called it. I don't know if I ever told you but if so I'll say it again: THanks for beeing so happy for me when I shared with you that I was pregnant last year not knowing what you had just been through. Please let me take Ry for the afternoon. HOw is friday? I promise i won't bite!

Andrea, the little collector said...

You know, I think it is ok to just be honest about the whole journey. Ride out the stinky times, celebrate the joyous ones...and trust that others will be doing the same. A miracle can still give you unpleasant bumps along the way. :)

Love you!