Lady Troubles

Not in detail or anything, just trying to document a little here. When this is published in our little family book I will have it for record.... My female organs are sort of a mystery, or were a mystery for a while. See.... I have trouble getting a baby and keeping a baby. Ry and Gator are Cholmid babies and Munchie was just plain us(nothing short of a miracle). I have had a couple pretty nasty miscarriages. Four; with one set of twins.  I am glad when I am back into mommy mode because my heart can heal a little too. ANYWAY! I was having some issues about two weeks ago that landed me in the ER and not-to-my-surprise I had a cyst. I have had these before so nothing to worry about. But finally, I have a little diagnosis of why my body has never wanted to shed pounds that I try to diet and exercise off. Why I do struggle with the whole get the babe, keep the babe... PCOS! Something to hang my hat on and start researching to make my life easier. I go back in six weeks for another ultrasound to check the cyst and the little nodule that resides inside of that! Walllahhh! Wanna know something crazy? I totally bought a book from the library book sale on PCOS! Let the research begin!

Man, I feel more like myself now; then I did when I first got here!

And then...........

We got the letter back from Cardiology for Gator and school. It is always interesting to me to see things like procedures and surgeries listed like it was in this letter. The list seems so long on paper. Yet to see Gator boy, all totally worth it!  That day we also filled out the pre-screen to have Gator tested. We have a date to see the teachers! I was so fascinated by what I learned about my little son. He is very great at communication. He has an amazing vocabulary. He even has decent motor skills... But his ability to sit still, even for short amounts of time and to use fine motor skills, like holding a pencil, buttoning and zipping are still out of the question. He can follow a few instructions. He can't remember things well. He doesn't know any of his letters or numbers except "A" and he can't even tell you the letters in his name... We have been working on these things for two years! I feel like it takes ten times to teach him something new!  It is going to be work.... But we are going to do it! I was feeling very nervous about having him tested. Now I feel very blessed, because I know that I don't have the skills necessary in helping him be confident in school. I am grateful that there are teachers who will help him be a good student. Not the best student.... I do not require this of any of our children, but a student who works hard and does not act entitled. I was not the perfect student and so I cannot push that onto my children.  What will be hard is teaching them/him to work beyond the frustration both of us will be feeling. To keep trying even when it is hard. I still have to learn that.

 I don't need easy
I just need possible
-Soul Surfer